IF YOU READ MY OTHER BLOG . . .

. . . you'll know I've hit a bit of a setback as of today. I've hurt my knee. :(

It's pretty sore at the moment and I'm really hoping it won't stop me exercising for long as I was really getting into it and felt like I was finally getting somewhere. But I guess we can only wait and see.

I'm so pissed off about the whole thing I've just eaten half a large bag of doritos and half a jar of sour cream and chive dip.

Yep, well done Paula . . .

WILLPOWER . . .

. . . is not something that really exists in my vocabulary. I wish it was.

However, I'm proud of myself tonight. I managed to resist having too much to eat after I got home. I had a chicken and noodle stirfry for dinner - nothing big, I didn't really want to spare the calories as I ate quite a lot during the day. Although I walked to and from work so I wasn't worrying too much about the amount I ate.

And after dinner I did my exercise dvd. I'm almost getting quite into it, which is surprising for me. The dvd is a tad repetitive but it manages to get lots of lunges and squats into the workout in an aerobic way, which is unusual in my view. I really need to buy some hand weights because the other workout utilises them a lot, and promises to change your body shape very quickly. I could use some of that!

Anyway, I had three squares of Green & Blacks mint chocolate and that didn't seem enough. I wasn't even hungry but I was craving something else. I wandered about the kitchen, looking for something, realised the only thing I really wanted was something dripping in cheese . . . and stopped myself. Grabbed a can of Sprite Zero instead and headed back to my room. Away from the temptation.

Yay me!

AN UPDATE . . .

So I've been doing okay. Mainly because I haven't drank since last Sunday (which has been pretty difficult) and have been trying to fill up on healthy stuff as much as possible. Okay, so I wasn't BRILLIANT with my food choices but I did cook quite a bit which is unlike me. I made spaghetti bolognese for the flatmates on Monday night and tacos on Tuesday night. I know they aren't UBER-HEALTHY, but the fact I actually MADE them and didn't just eat ready meals is a bit impressive by my standards. As far as I'm concerned, it's the small victories that are important and will contribute to the end result.

I also have the Davina McCall Super Body workout now, which I got via post on Wednesday and have done three times so far. It has a great abs workout which you can really feel working.

In fact, I weighed myself this morning and I was quite happy with my weight. Although I then somehow weighed three and a half pounds more just a few hours later. I'm assuming it's because I had drank quite a lot and eaten too, but it's still a bit demoralising to "put on weight" so quickly!!!

Anyway, I'm going to keep up the exercise, try to avoid the alcohol as much as possible and try to make healthy choices as far as I can . . . and I think I need to stop seeing this as a "diet". Because the word just intimidates me and makes it that much harder!

SO THE DIET . . .

. . . starts tomorrow.



I'm a bit nervous and anxious because I know I am SOOOO bad when it comes to willpower. But this time I think I KNOW I need to do it.



I can't keep on the way I'm doing right now. Because I just can't STOP eating. It's not good!



So we'll see what happens.



Wish me luck!!!

MY PLAN FOR JAN . ..

LIQUID:

• As mentioned in my previous post, no alcohol.
• At least two litres of water a day.
• Try to start off the day with a cup of hot water and lemon.
• Try to drink at least a few cups of green tea a day.

DIET:

• Try to stick to under 1300 calories a day.
• Don't overdo the simple carbs. Pasta and bread are okay, but the key is moderation.
• Fill up on fruit and veg rather than chocolate but don't deny myself if I REALLY want some.
• Plenty of fish.
• Avoid the vending machines at work.

EXERCISE:

• Cardio for half an hour at least four times a week
• Yogalates at least twice a week
• Walk to work as much as possible - try not to sleep in and have to get a taxi, it's not good for my health OR my finances!

This plan is going to start on the 5th January. I'm feeling optimistic.

Wish me luck!!!

ONCE AGAIN . . .

The diet officially starts once again on Monday. Of course, I should really start it today. BUT while I'm still on holiday (and still have christmas sweets kicking about) it seems a bit unrealistic.

I've already done one thing though. Stopped drinking alcohol for the month.

This should definitely make a difference. I hope.

We'll find out soon enough.

I'VE BEEN GOOD . . .

. . . the past couple of days.

I'm actually proud of myself. Because I've been working in a cold warehouse for the past few days, it would be easy for me to stuff myself with comfort food to warm myself up and make myself feel better (I hate this part of my job!) But I've been good.

Think the fact I've been running about a lot has helped, and also it's been so cold in the warehouse I've not really got time to think about being hungry. I've been trying to stick to my three apple a day thing and haven't really had time to eat in the morning before grabbing a taxi to work (the bad thing is that because I'm not within walking distance of the warehouse, i can't walk like I usually would to my office which cuts out some exercise). So I've been having an apple in the morning, another apple with my lunch, and one mid-afternoon. For my ACTUAL lunch, I've been having a tortilla wrap with light Philadelphia and a mixture of red peppers, mushroom and onion - so it tastes yummy AND I feel like it's relatively healthy.

For dinner yesterday I had a cheese and onion grill thing (approx 180 cals) and a bowl of soup with one slice of brown bread and butter, and I had a Curly Wurly as a treat. For dinner tonight I had a Weightwatchers lasagne, and then later on I had some Reece's cups. I know, I know, chocolate isn't good. But I find that I can't deny myself it. If I allow myself a treat of chocolate, I'm far happier and less likely to go off the rails. And as long as I allow space for it, I don't see why i shouldn't let myself have something nice . . .

So tomorrow is my last day in the warehouse so I'm hoping I can stick to a similar plan then. It may all go to ruin once I'm back in the nice hot office sitting on my ass but I'm definitely going to try and stick to the three apples a day and trying not to overdo it when I get home at night. I have a Christmas night out a week on Saturday so would like to feel a little less bulky for that.

I'm also looking for other adjustments i can make to my diet that might help, the little things make all the difference, right? If I find anything, I'll let you know . . .